2013. Let's start all over.

So I just remembered I still have this blog and WTF I back read all of my posts here and I'm just like "I'm so gay." "this is so gay" "WTF! am I thinking" "that's overemotional... and gay" "oh my god whaaaaat!" I can't believe it's 2013 now. New year. New life. New me 'cause change is good too (especially if it's for the better.) I'm trying my best to not be overemotional about things anymore and messed up love life 'cause it's all bullshit. There is no point about being sad if this someone doesn't give a fuck 'bout you at all (or doesn't feel the same about you). So, there's no point. I'm anti-bullshit now. I'm trying my best to not care about people who doesn't do the same to me. But I'm still nice at everyone though, trying not to be super-cunt. I swear there's no point in even trying to with anyone anymore. If they can do those kind of things, I can. I'm really proud to say these things and I'm proud to say that I'm getting happier and happier. Life is so beautiful just try to ignore negativity and you're all good. Love life & live. Btw, just ignore my previous 2012 posts because I am not that anymore. Who wrote well some of my 2012 posts is dead. I consider her dead... and this is the new me. What really matters is now and the future. I'm trying to do good and just give my best :)

Want to know why I'm getting happier and happier? It's because of my family and my friends and God. I'm very thankful and blessed enough to have them in my life, they support me through everything. Another reason are my other inspirations, they are musicians and I'm so glad and thankful that I've found their music to get me through of things of being sad and REASONS.. these past few months. It's the genre Electronic music. When I first listened to Grimes, Skrillex, Steve Aoki, Swedish House Mafia & more. Little by little it makes me happy. Until I have fallen in love with it or with them. Do you know the feeling of like fuck everyone!, fuck what people think, just be fucking happy, dance!, don't be sad, what's the point of being sad? life is too fucking short, man... to be FUCKING SAD and ok you know what just listen to these music it's what makes you happy. And now, all I can think of is good thoughts, happy thoughts, and I'm smiling more. This is solid right here because of them I am less sad, I'd like to thank them personally or maybe go to their shows someday. They're really blessed with such amazing talent and they make me happy and I am just one. I love them so much!

Uhm, and that's pretty much it about this post. I hope you're having a good time, good day & I hope you will have a great year this year.

Peace... Love life & live.


- Elaine

Wishlist: Tattoos

Wow it's like a month uh? I miss blogging *sigh* so busy with school and other stuff that's why. So here in this post I will just talk about what are the tattoos I'm getting when I'm in college already. Well don't judge me I know I'm 15 right now but idk I just like to plan things so..
1.) II XII XCVII
- My birthday, February 12, 1997 in roman numerals.

2.) Yin Yang
- represents the ancient Chinese understanding of how things work. The outer circle represents "everything", while the black and white shapes within the circle represent the interaction of two energies, called "yin" (black) and "yang" (white), which cause everything to happen. They are not completely black or white, just as things in life are not completely black or white, and they cannot exist without each other.
While "yin" would be dark, passive, downward, cold, contracting, and weak, "yang" would be bright, active, upward, hot, expanding, and strong. The shape of the yin and yang sections of the symbol, actually gives you a sense of the continual movement of these two energies, yin to yang and yang to yin, causing everything to happen: just as things expand and contract, and temperature changes from hot to cold.

- Okay that explains all why Yin Yang 

3.) GOOD LOVE or GOOD LOVE WILL FIND ME
- A The Maine appreciation tattoo. I love those guys to death that's why. I should stick with the "GOOD LOVE WILL FIND ME"? yeah?!

4.) "COME SWEET DEATH, ONE LAST CARES"
- Aug 24, 2012 John from The Maine tweeted these words and I think it's beautiful. It is.
- John is one of my favorite people. He and the band continues to inspire me, most of the time, every single day and I can say FOREVER in my life. 

5.) ♡ 
- Well I think it's cute, haha.




I want to get first the good love and sweet death. Excited!

Special People

One of the best things that ever happen to me this school year (in My Fourth Year Life) are these clowns lol. These bitches are the best. Whenever I'm with them they always make me happy and laugh so hard that I could cry. They Are My Clowns Okay. Haha! joke These are My Best Friends. They are Matthew and Zel. Zel's my classmate at school and she's a transferee so she's really my new best friend. Matthew was my classmate last year and we pretty much like the same things and y'know we all get to know each other. They're really nice. Did you know that It's my first time to have a guy best friend Lol now you know, just saying. And yeah we like the same things not all but yeah whatever. We're cool as fuck. Lol. Whatever. Sometimes we can be awkward, crazy and weird. I want these bitches to stay in my life forever. For now I'm just enjoying the time with them. I really love them. I hope in the future they're still be part of my life. You know what REAL FRIENDS ARE? I got mines, bitches. Let's keep it real ;) And I am so proud to say that I am so blessed that I have them in my life. Thank You God. :)

Late blog post: Zel's Birthday July 7, 2012

It's one of my best friends' birthday last July 6, 2012 but she treated us the next day which is July 7 and we really had fun! Matt and I planned to just give her a cake 'cause we have no idea what to give her. The first problem is I didn't get the chance to buy the cake early so I'm planning to buy it afternoon. Okay so she treated us on Max's so Matt had this idea that we're just going to buy her cake at Max's so ya we did. And after our food was served these staffs from Max's started to sing "Happy Birthday from Max's Family" I don't know if I'm correct with that I completely forgot what they're saying. Lol. So ya Zel was shocked and was so shy. lol. The cake was so good man! caramel + chocolate flavor yum! haha. After at Marquee/Max's we go to our house lol haha. Bonding and watched movies. I really love my clowns! Haha. I want them to stay in my life forever.

Keepsake Silks' Sugar Skulls

I won Keepsake Silks' sugar skull giveaway! and I finally got it from the post mail today after two weeks receiving the letter from the post mail. I've been very busy in school these past few weeks so I just claimed it today.

The package came from UK and I was so amaze. Hihi :) I love UK! so cool man.

I got the Sugar Skull # 25 ♥

Thank you so much, Keepsake Silks / Ms. Lisamarie and Shaunni :) I love my sugar skull so much! ♥

SHOP AT: Keepsake Silks

I'm good. I'm bad.

So I've been very busy these past few weeks in school. Y'know. That's why I didn't post anything for a couple of weeks. 4th year is hard. So I have to double my hard work in school and I know I'm still not giving the best I can right now. I'm starting it next week. I'm gonna rise now. Fuck. I don't know what's wrong with me these past few weeks. I always think a lot of things. and sometimes my mind is flying like y'know what I mean. I'M NOT FOCUS, OKAY. I really don't know why. It's my fault. Shit. I know. Plus today I'm not in the mood. I'm so pissed. My mom didn't allow me to go to Maroon 5 and The Cab's concert. For fucks sake, that's the only thing I'm asking. She really don't appreciate what I do. This is a big problem. I just hate this feeling. While my sister who's older than me can get what she wants. and fuck maybe I'm jealous yeah! I don't care but it's true. Fuck fuck fuck. I even deactivated my account on Facebook because she doesn't reply to my messages. I'm like I'm your fucking daughter hello?? can you please fucking reply??!!! But she do reply to my sister's messages and when I asked/messaged her about the concert she replied/messaged  my sister I mean, she said to my sister she want to let me know that she don't want me to come to the concert. WELL SUCKS. You can reply to me mom?? LOL??? MOM?? I know I'm so evil bwahahaha LOL I'm bad yeah I'm a bitch. whatever. I don't care. I just know that this is what I feel.

Inspirations

This is nice and very true. If anyone who disagree with me well then you must be very pretty huh? Lolol joke but hey I mean this is true seriously okay maybe you can't relate with me on this one but I don't know whatever. I'm not pretty. So no one really cares about me and with that I won't let myself down, never. This will inspire me to love myself and to believe in me. If no one will care about me then I fucking will. It's all me.

It’s alright to be confused because everybody’s confused and I think that the sooner that you can kind of realize that you’re not the only one that feels lost… I think that’s the reason that I attach myself to music that I listen to and that’s why I listen to music because it’s therapeutic and it helps with everything. - John O’callaghan

Fuck, fuck, fuck. John I love you so much! so much. Ladies and gents.. my hero. He is my spirit animal and inspiration. This man is genius and one of the most great people I know. I thank him so much for everything. I love this man so much and I will always say that all the time. He's so perfect. and of course, I love The Maine so much, forever.

 and this video too. Oh my god. I'm crying. okay. okay...

HOW WILL YOU BE REMEMBERED?

oh my fucking god. ok. ok.

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