Wishlist: Tattoos

Wow it's like a month uh? I miss blogging *sigh* so busy with school and other stuff that's why. So here in this post I will just talk about what are the tattoos I'm getting when I'm in college already. Well don't judge me I know I'm 15 right now but idk I just like to plan things so..
1.) II XII XCVII
- My birthday, February 12, 1997 in roman numerals.

2.) Yin Yang
- represents the ancient Chinese understanding of how things work. The outer circle represents "everything", while the black and white shapes within the circle represent the interaction of two energies, called "yin" (black) and "yang" (white), which cause everything to happen. They are not completely black or white, just as things in life are not completely black or white, and they cannot exist without each other.
While "yin" would be dark, passive, downward, cold, contracting, and weak, "yang" would be bright, active, upward, hot, expanding, and strong. The shape of the yin and yang sections of the symbol, actually gives you a sense of the continual movement of these two energies, yin to yang and yang to yin, causing everything to happen: just as things expand and contract, and temperature changes from hot to cold.

- Okay that explains all why Yin Yang 

3.) GOOD LOVE or GOOD LOVE WILL FIND ME
- A The Maine appreciation tattoo. I love those guys to death that's why. I should stick with the "GOOD LOVE WILL FIND ME"? yeah?!

4.) "COME SWEET DEATH, ONE LAST CARES"
- Aug 24, 2012 John from The Maine tweeted these words and I think it's beautiful. It is.
- John is one of my favorite people. He and the band continues to inspire me, most of the time, every single day and I can say FOREVER in my life. 

5.) ♡ 
- Well I think it's cute, haha.




I want to get first the good love and sweet death. Excited!

Special People

One of the best things that ever happen to me this school year (in My Fourth Year Life) are these clowns lol. These bitches are the best. Whenever I'm with them they always make me happy and laugh so hard that I could cry. They Are My Clowns Okay. Haha! joke These are My Best Friends. They are Matthew and Zel. Zel's my classmate at school and she's a transferee so she's really my new best friend. Matthew was my classmate last year and we pretty much like the same things and y'know we all get to know each other. They're really nice. Did you know that It's my first time to have a guy best friend Lol now you know, just saying. And yeah we like the same things not all but yeah whatever. We're cool as fuck. Lol. Whatever. Sometimes we can be awkward, crazy and weird. I want these bitches to stay in my life forever. For now I'm just enjoying the time with them. I really love them. I hope in the future they're still be part of my life. You know what REAL FRIENDS ARE? I got mines, bitches. Let's keep it real ;) And I am so proud to say that I am so blessed that I have them in my life. Thank You God. :)

Late blog post: Zel's Birthday July 7, 2012

It's one of my best friends' birthday last July 6, 2012 but she treated us the next day which is July 7 and we really had fun! Matt and I planned to just give her a cake 'cause we have no idea what to give her. The first problem is I didn't get the chance to buy the cake early so I'm planning to buy it afternoon. Okay so she treated us on Max's so Matt had this idea that we're just going to buy her cake at Max's so ya we did. And after our food was served these staffs from Max's started to sing "Happy Birthday from Max's Family" I don't know if I'm correct with that I completely forgot what they're saying. Lol. So ya Zel was shocked and was so shy. lol. The cake was so good man! caramel + chocolate flavor yum! haha. After at Marquee/Max's we go to our house lol haha. Bonding and watched movies. I really love my clowns! Haha. I want them to stay in my life forever.

Keepsake Silks' Sugar Skulls

I won Keepsake Silks' sugar skull giveaway! and I finally got it from the post mail today after two weeks receiving the letter from the post mail. I've been very busy in school these past few weeks so I just claimed it today.

The package came from UK and I was so amaze. Hihi :) I love UK! so cool man.

I got the Sugar Skull # 25 ♥

Thank you so much, Keepsake Silks / Ms. Lisamarie and Shaunni :) I love my sugar skull so much! ♥

SHOP AT: Keepsake Silks

I'm good. I'm bad.

So I've been very busy these past few weeks in school. Y'know. That's why I didn't post anything for a couple of weeks. 4th year is hard. So I have to double my hard work in school and I know I'm still not giving the best I can right now. I'm starting it next week. I'm gonna rise now. Fuck. I don't know what's wrong with me these past few weeks. I always think a lot of things. and sometimes my mind is flying like y'know what I mean. I'M NOT FOCUS, OKAY. I really don't know why. It's my fault. Shit. I know. Plus today I'm not in the mood. I'm so pissed. My mom didn't allow me to go to Maroon 5 and The Cab's concert. For fucks sake, that's the only thing I'm asking. She really don't appreciate what I do. This is a big problem. I just hate this feeling. While my sister who's older than me can get what she wants. and fuck maybe I'm jealous yeah! I don't care but it's true. Fuck fuck fuck. I even deactivated my account on Facebook because she doesn't reply to my messages. I'm like I'm your fucking daughter hello?? can you please fucking reply??!!! But she do reply to my sister's messages and when I asked/messaged her about the concert she replied/messaged  my sister I mean, she said to my sister she want to let me know that she don't want me to come to the concert. WELL SUCKS. You can reply to me mom?? LOL??? MOM?? I know I'm so evil bwahahaha LOL I'm bad yeah I'm a bitch. whatever. I don't care. I just know that this is what I feel.

Inspirations

This is nice and very true. If anyone who disagree with me well then you must be very pretty huh? Lolol joke but hey I mean this is true seriously okay maybe you can't relate with me on this one but I don't know whatever. I'm not pretty. So no one really cares about me and with that I won't let myself down, never. This will inspire me to love myself and to believe in me. If no one will care about me then I fucking will. It's all me.

It’s alright to be confused because everybody’s confused and I think that the sooner that you can kind of realize that you’re not the only one that feels lost… I think that’s the reason that I attach myself to music that I listen to and that’s why I listen to music because it’s therapeutic and it helps with everything. - John O’callaghan

Fuck, fuck, fuck. John I love you so much! so much. Ladies and gents.. my hero. He is my spirit animal and inspiration. This man is genius and one of the most great people I know. I thank him so much for everything. I love this man so much and I will always say that all the time. He's so perfect. and of course, I love The Maine so much, forever.

 and this video too. Oh my god. I'm crying. okay. okay...

HOW WILL YOU BE REMEMBERED?

oh my fucking god. ok. ok.

random...

Gay Post

Lol. Hey! I just got home from my cousin's house they blessed the house (omg yeah idk yes haha) and yeah I like their new house, it's not totally finish but soon and yeah I was amazed with the lights from their house. Oh oh oh it's Father's Day today haha! I never had the chance to greet my grandfather and my father. I'm too shy. but yeah I love them. (omg haha) My social life today... (0) damn it! no one talk to me I mean not much but I kinda like not talking sometimes because I have nothing interesting to say..ugh. 

So onto my gay thoughts (oh my god yes this is about the love thing damn it) I wish when I'm 20, my future boyfriend would be attractive, funny, who's personality is smoking, who talk and tell a lot of things because I just want to listen to his voice, height is 6 ft. (Ok ok I like tall guys because ya know tall guys are attractive!!! and my dream height right now is 5'8 so I have to be really fit to get that height OMGOMG soon ok), fit, white (idk I wish he's half filipino and half american or IDK just american please? gimme omg I sound like a slut but no no noooo HAHAHA), do fashion, great on his fashion sense, respectful, kind, nice, have great talents, maybe who sings or play instruments like ohmygod I know, I have high standards that's why when I'm 20 or idk younger than 20 like 16,17,18,19 HAHAHAHAHA OMFG I'd love to be fit and dressed well and stuff OK ya know what I mean. I wish I can find a guy that all have those things, imagine having a boyfriend like that omg I'd totally marry him god damn. OMG this is so gay but just saying ya know. future boyfriend please please be that kind of a guy oh please God :) so yeah that's all of my gay thoughts, xoxo.

Music:

Ed Sheeran - Drunk

yeah idk

So I'm just gonna blog my feelings out here ohmygod feelings yeah dumb. I hate the feeling that no one even likes me? I mean not the love love thing OK but everyone! I was asking some friends what are their first impressions of me and I got serious, quiet, emo (goddamn, matthew I am not. Faggot.), idk bitchy or mean or ill tempered(omg idk ill tempered??) (what the fuck SO WRONG loves) That's just first impressions of me but those are all wrong wow like oh my god people. I really hate this feeling just fucking talk to me and get to know me okay. I should get this straight I think some my classmates are bitchy or mean but I don't know let's see I'm not so sure. If you want to be my friend then okay. but like right now I don't understand people like eww i don't even know. What a bitch and mean cunt. you fucking cunt. YOU FUCKING MEAN. If I'm nice to you then get what I want back then be fucking nice okay. I just really want to stay quiet now because people are dumb as fuck. like UGH fucking dumb stupid whores. I just want to stick with my friends now (those who stayed)

info 2012

So yeah I can say that I'm the most ambitious person you'll ever know. I really like to plan what will I do or want to be in the future or when I get older. First thing is I have to stay in school (you too!) I'm trying my best not to get lazy sometimes. If you study too go get your ass in school. It's only the way to be on the top! When I graduate then yay! proud! get a job and do everything I want to be more successful because I fucking can. I say this all the time to myself work hard stay humble and be nice to people. I'm highly influenced by these two people I know over the internet who are very successful these days, they're Nikkilipstick and Jac Vanek so inspirational people. I'd love to be like them in the future. Being ambitious makes me strive more on things and with life. My goals and dreams are what I live for. I will do everything to have them all and I won't rush. I can be patient. I'm still young.

I love myself because no one will. I believe in me. I can be selfish, bitter, fake and the most kindest person you'll ever met (well if you feel my personality or attitude then I will like you). Deal with it. If you're the bitchiest person I will ever met well then fine I don't have the right to judge (that's you) but I can play fake sometimes ;) xoxo

Oh I will also have to share this with y'all. The most greatest words of Rocco that will make your day :) I should read this everyday. He's so great <3

JUST BE FUCKING HAPPY..

You can be afraid that you are missing out on life.

But thinking you are missing out is when you actually miss out on life.

no one is perfect. we are all the same.

if someone else can do it you can do it, even possibly better.

Never let anything get you down. if you fail SO FUCKING WHAT.

get back up and try it again.

if you think about life ,

the worst thing that can happen is that you die. but who said dyeing is even that bad. 

I like to think of life as one big video game with a million lives.

Every time you fail you just start over with a new life. 

just deal with the shitty moments and enjoy the good ones. 

LIFE IS SO SIMPLE. BE HAPPY

HAPPY*

if you’re bummed just go do ANYTHING. 

we can literally do anything in life. 

work hard  will get you anywhere. 

change your shitty mind set & just see the lighter side to life. 

everyone is afraid of what they are going to be in life. NO ONE has the answers.

we don’t need to know why we are on this earth.  just do what makes you feel good inside & then die.

random thoughts, 

-Rocco The Great

This is me. Still reaching the top or number one and who's someday will. xoxo

you too! make your dreams come true loves <3

MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS ♡ I am Marina's diamond

I just really love Marina's music, selfishness + L O V E | E V ✰ L = Electra Heart I am just so in love with that album! IDK, when I first heard of the album I just completely fell in love. Marina is my queen and inspiration. I both love her 2 albums which are The Family Jewels and Electra Heart. My favorite song from The Family Jewels is Numb I play that song A LOT everyday. actually all of her songs are really awesome all are my favorites!

What I also love about Marina? is her fashion style! I either both love her old style and now. I am just really digging that 50s fashion she's rocking now! Marina and Electra Heart are inspired by icons Madonna, Marilyn Monroe and Marie Antoinette. obvious?! Because of Marina I am now more loving the 50s fashion style and I'd love to do such style soon when I go out? on some special events though, I wonder what the people would think of me? I'm even looking over the internet on some online shops who sells vintage 50s dresses I really want to buy so bad even though I owned some vintage dresses but it seems that they don't have that 50s style. sigh.

Watch some of MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS OFFICIAL VIDEOS:

I'll be forever a Marina's diamond and will be continuing to support her forever because I just love her so much! ♡ ♡ ♡

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