Special People

One of the best things that ever happen to me this school year (in My Fourth Year Life) are these clowns lol. These bitches are the best. Whenever I'm with them they always make me happy and laugh so hard that I could cry. They Are My Clowns Okay. Haha! joke These are My Best Friends. They are Matthew and Zel. Zel's my classmate at school and she's a transferee so she's really my new best friend. Matthew was my classmate last year and we pretty much like the same things and y'know we all get to know each other. They're really nice. Did you know that It's my first time to have a guy best friend Lol now you know, just saying. And yeah we like the same things not all but yeah whatever. We're cool as fuck. Lol. Whatever. Sometimes we can be awkward, crazy and weird. I want these bitches to stay in my life forever. For now I'm just enjoying the time with them. I really love them. I hope in the future they're still be part of my life. You know what REAL FRIENDS ARE? I got mines, bitches. Let's keep it real ;) And I am so proud to say that I am so blessed that I have them in my life. Thank You God. :)

Late blog post: Zel's Birthday July 7, 2012

It's one of my best friends' birthday last July 6, 2012 but she treated us the next day which is July 7 and we really had fun! Matt and I planned to just give her a cake 'cause we have no idea what to give her. The first problem is I didn't get the chance to buy the cake early so I'm planning to buy it afternoon. Okay so she treated us on Max's so Matt had this idea that we're just going to buy her cake at Max's so ya we did. And after our food was served these staffs from Max's started to sing "Happy Birthday from Max's Family" I don't know if I'm correct with that I completely forgot what they're saying. Lol. So ya Zel was shocked and was so shy. lol. The cake was so good man! caramel + chocolate flavor yum! haha. After at Marquee/Max's we go to our house lol haha. Bonding and watched movies. I really love my clowns! Haha. I want them to stay in my life forever.

Keepsake Silks' Sugar Skulls

I won Keepsake Silks' sugar skull giveaway! and I finally got it from the post mail today after two weeks receiving the letter from the post mail. I've been very busy in school these past few weeks so I just claimed it today.

The package came from UK and I was so amaze. Hihi :) I love UK! so cool man.

I got the Sugar Skull # 25 ♥

Thank you so much, Keepsake Silks / Ms. Lisamarie and Shaunni :) I love my sugar skull so much! ♥

SHOP AT: Keepsake Silks

I'm good. I'm bad.

So I've been very busy these past few weeks in school. Y'know. That's why I didn't post anything for a couple of weeks. 4th year is hard. So I have to double my hard work in school and I know I'm still not giving the best I can right now. I'm starting it next week. I'm gonna rise now. Fuck. I don't know what's wrong with me these past few weeks. I always think a lot of things. and sometimes my mind is flying like y'know what I mean. I'M NOT FOCUS, OKAY. I really don't know why. It's my fault. Shit. I know. Plus today I'm not in the mood. I'm so pissed. My mom didn't allow me to go to Maroon 5 and The Cab's concert. For fucks sake, that's the only thing I'm asking. She really don't appreciate what I do. This is a big problem. I just hate this feeling. While my sister who's older than me can get what she wants. and fuck maybe I'm jealous yeah! I don't care but it's true. Fuck fuck fuck. I even deactivated my account on Facebook because she doesn't reply to my messages. I'm like I'm your fucking daughter hello?? can you please fucking reply??!!! But she do reply to my sister's messages and when I asked/messaged her about the concert she replied/messaged  my sister I mean, she said to my sister she want to let me know that she don't want me to come to the concert. WELL SUCKS. You can reply to me mom?? LOL??? MOM?? I know I'm so evil bwahahaha LOL I'm bad yeah I'm a bitch. whatever. I don't care. I just know that this is what I feel.

Inspirations

This is nice and very true. If anyone who disagree with me well then you must be very pretty huh? Lolol joke but hey I mean this is true seriously okay maybe you can't relate with me on this one but I don't know whatever. I'm not pretty. So no one really cares about me and with that I won't let myself down, never. This will inspire me to love myself and to believe in me. If no one will care about me then I fucking will. It's all me.

It’s alright to be confused because everybody’s confused and I think that the sooner that you can kind of realize that you’re not the only one that feels lost… I think that’s the reason that I attach myself to music that I listen to and that’s why I listen to music because it’s therapeutic and it helps with everything. - John O’callaghan

Fuck, fuck, fuck. John I love you so much! so much. Ladies and gents.. my hero. He is my spirit animal and inspiration. This man is genius and one of the most great people I know. I thank him so much for everything. I love this man so much and I will always say that all the time. He's so perfect. and of course, I love The Maine so much, forever.

 and this video too. Oh my god. I'm crying. okay. okay...

HOW WILL YOU BE REMEMBERED?

oh my fucking god. ok. ok.

random...

Gay Post

Lol. Hey! I just got home from my cousin's house they blessed the house (omg yeah idk yes haha) and yeah I like their new house, it's not totally finish but soon and yeah I was amazed with the lights from their house. Oh oh oh it's Father's Day today haha! I never had the chance to greet my grandfather and my father. I'm too shy. but yeah I love them. (omg haha) My social life today... (0) damn it! no one talk to me I mean not much but I kinda like not talking sometimes because I have nothing interesting to say..ugh. 

So onto my gay thoughts (oh my god yes this is about the love thing damn it) I wish when I'm 20, my future boyfriend would be attractive, funny, who's personality is smoking, who talk and tell a lot of things because I just want to listen to his voice, height is 6 ft. (Ok ok I like tall guys because ya know tall guys are attractive!!! and my dream height right now is 5'8 so I have to be really fit to get that height OMGOMG soon ok), fit, white (idk I wish he's half filipino and half american or IDK just american please? gimme omg I sound like a slut but no no noooo HAHAHA), do fashion, great on his fashion sense, respectful, kind, nice, have great talents, maybe who sings or play instruments like ohmygod I know, I have high standards that's why when I'm 20 or idk younger than 20 like 16,17,18,19 HAHAHAHAHA OMFG I'd love to be fit and dressed well and stuff OK ya know what I mean. I wish I can find a guy that all have those things, imagine having a boyfriend like that omg I'd totally marry him god damn. OMG this is so gay but just saying ya know. future boyfriend please please be that kind of a guy oh please God :) so yeah that's all of my gay thoughts, xoxo.

Music:

Ed Sheeran - Drunk

yeah idk

So I'm just gonna blog my feelings out here ohmygod feelings yeah dumb. I hate the feeling that no one even likes me? I mean not the love love thing OK but everyone! I was asking some friends what are their first impressions of me and I got serious, quiet, emo (goddamn, matthew I am not. Faggot.), idk bitchy or mean or ill tempered(omg idk ill tempered??) (what the fuck SO WRONG loves) That's just first impressions of me but those are all wrong wow like oh my god people. I really hate this feeling just fucking talk to me and get to know me okay. I should get this straight I think some my classmates are bitchy or mean but I don't know let's see I'm not so sure. If you want to be my friend then okay. but like right now I don't understand people like eww i don't even know. What a bitch and mean cunt. you fucking cunt. YOU FUCKING MEAN. If I'm nice to you then get what I want back then be fucking nice okay. I just really want to stay quiet now because people are dumb as fuck. like UGH fucking dumb stupid whores. I just want to stick with my friends now (those who stayed)