I won Keepsake Silks' sugar skull giveaway! and I finally got it from the post mail today after two weeks receiving the letter from the post mail. I've been very busy in school these past few weeks so I just claimed it today.
The package came from UK and I was so amaze. Hihi :) I love UK! so cool man.
I got the Sugar Skull # 25 ♥
Thank you so much, Keepsake Silks / Ms. Lisamarie and Shaunni :) I love my sugar skull so much! ♥
So I've been very busy these past few weeks in school. Y'know. That's why I didn't post anything for a couple of weeks. 4th year is hard. So I have to double my hard work in school and I know I'm still not giving the best I can right now. I'm starting it next week. I'm gonna rise now. Fuck. I don't know what's wrong with me these past few weeks. I always think a lot of things. and sometimes my mind is flying like y'know what I mean. I'M NOT FOCUS, OKAY. I really don't know why. It's my fault. Shit. I know. Plus today I'm not in the mood. I'm so pissed. My mom didn't allow me to go to Maroon 5 and The Cab's concert. For fucks sake, that's the only thing I'm asking. She really don't appreciate what I do. This is a big problem. I just hate this feeling. While my sister who's older than me can get what she wants. and fuck maybe I'm jealous yeah! I don't care but it's true. Fuck fuck fuck. I even deactivated my account on Facebook because she doesn't reply to my messages. I'm like I'm your fucking daughter hello?? can you please fucking reply??!!! But she do reply to my sister's messages and when I asked/messaged her about the concert she replied/messaged my sister I mean, she said to my sister she want to let me know that she don't want me to come to the concert. WELL SUCKS. You can reply to me mom?? LOL??? MOM?? I know I'm so evil bwahahaha LOL I'm bad yeah I'm a bitch. whatever. I don't care. I just know that this is what I feel.
This is nice and very true. If anyone who disagree with me well then you must be very pretty huh? Lolol joke but hey I mean this is true seriously okay maybe you can't relate with me on this one but I don't know whatever. I'm not pretty. So no one really cares about me and with that I won't let myself down, never. This will inspire me to love myself and to believe in me. If no one will care about me then I fucking will. It's all me.
It’s alright to be confused because everybody’s confused and I think that the sooner that you can kind of realize that you’re not the only one that feels lost… I think that’s the reason that I attach myself to music that I listen to and that’s why I listen to music because it’s therapeutic and it helps with everything. - John O’callaghan
Fuck, fuck, fuck. John I love you so much! so much. Ladies and gents.. my hero. He is my spirit animal and inspiration. This man is genius and one of the most great people I know. I thank him so much for everything. I love this man so much and I will always say that all the time. He's so perfect. and of course, I love The Maine so much, forever.
and this video too. Oh my god. I'm crying. okay. okay...
Lol. Hey! I just got home from my cousin's house they blessed the house (omg yeah idk yes haha) and yeah I like their new house, it's not totally finish but soon and yeah I was amazed with the lights from their house. Oh oh oh it's Father's Day today haha! I never had the chance to greet my grandfather and my father. I'm too shy. but yeah I love them. (omg haha) My social life today... (0) damn it! no one talk to me I mean not much but I kinda like not talking sometimes because I have nothing interesting to say..ugh.
So onto my gay thoughts (oh my god yes this is about the love thing damn it) I wish when I'm 20, my future boyfriend would be attractive, funny, who's personality is smoking, who talk and tell a lot of things because I just want to listen to his voice, height is 6 ft. (Ok ok I like tall guys because ya know tall guys are attractive!!! and my dream height right now is 5'8 so I have to be really fit to get that height OMGOMG soon ok), fit, white (idk I wish he's half filipino and half american or IDK just american please? gimme omg I sound like a slut but no no noooo HAHAHA), do fashion, great on his fashion sense, respectful, kind, nice, have great talents, maybe who sings or play instruments like ohmygod I know, I have high standards that's why when I'm 20 or idk younger than 20 like 16,17,18,19 HAHAHAHAHA OMFG I'd love to be fit and dressed well and stuff OK ya know what I mean. I wish I can find a guy that all have those things, imagine having a boyfriend like that omg I'd totally marry him god damn. OMG this is so gay but just saying ya know. future boyfriend please please be that kind of a guy oh please God :) so yeah that's all of my gay thoughts, xoxo.
So I'm just gonna blog my feelings out here ohmygod feelings yeah dumb. I hate the feeling that no one even likes me? I mean not the love love thing OK but everyone! I was asking some friends what are their first impressions of me and I got serious, quiet, emo (goddamn, matthew I am not. Faggot.), idk bitchy or mean or ill tempered(omg idk ill tempered??) (what the fuck SO WRONG loves) That's just first impressions of me but those are all wrong wow like oh my god people. I really hate this feeling just fucking talk to me and get to know me okay. I should get this straight I think some my classmates are bitchy or mean but I don't know let's see I'm not so sure. If you want to be my friend then okay. but like right now I don't understand people like eww i don't even know. What a bitch and mean cunt. you fucking cunt. YOU FUCKING MEAN. If I'm nice to you then get what I want back then be fucking nice okay. I just really want to stay quiet now because people are dumb as fuck. like UGH fucking dumb stupid whores. I just want to stick with my friends now (those who stayed)
So yeah I can say that I'm the most ambitious person you'll ever know. I really like to plan what will I do or want to be in the future or when I get older. First thing is I have to stay in school (you too!) I'm trying my best not to get lazy sometimes. If you study too go get your ass in school. It's only the way to be on the top! When I graduate then yay! proud! get a job and do everything I want to be more successful because I fucking can. I say this all the time to myself work hard stay humble and be nice to people. I'm highly influenced by these two people I know over the internet who are very successful these days, they're Nikkilipstick and Jac Vanek so inspirational people. I'd love to be like them in the future. Being ambitious makes me strive more on things and with life. My goals and dreams are what I live for. I will do everything to have them all and I won't rush. I can be patient. I'm still young.
I love myself because no one will. I believe in me. I can be selfish, bitter, fake and the most kindest person you'll ever met (well if you feel my personality or attitude then I will like you). Deal with it. If you're the bitchiest person I will ever met well then fine I don't have the right to judge (that's you) but I can play fake sometimes ;) xoxo
Oh I will also have to share this with y'all. The most greatest words of Rocco that will make your day :) I should read this everyday. He's so great <3
JUST BE FUCKING HAPPY..
You can be afraid that you are missing out on life.
But thinking you are missing out is when you actually miss out on life.
no one is perfect. we are all the same.
if someone else can do it you can do it, even possibly better.
Never let anything get you down. if you fail SO FUCKING WHAT.
get back up and try it again.
if you think about life ,
the worst thing that can happen is that you die. but who said dyeing is even that bad.
I like to think of life as one big video game with a million lives.
Every time you fail you just start over with a new life.
just deal with the shitty moments and enjoy the good ones.
LIFE IS SO SIMPLE. BE HAPPY
if you’re bummed just go do ANYTHING.
we can literally do anything in life.
work hard will get you anywhere.
change your shitty mind set & just see the lighter side to life.
everyone is afraid of what they are going to be in life. NO ONE has the answers.
we don’t need to know why we are on this earth. just do what makes you feel good inside & then die.
-Rocco The Great
This is me. Still reaching the top or number one and who's someday will. xoxo
I just really love Marina's music, selfishness + L O V E | E V ✰ L = Electra Heart I am just so in love with that album! IDK, when I first heard of the album I just completely fell in love. Marina is my queen and inspiration. I both love her 2 albums which are The Family Jewels and Electra Heart. My favorite song from The Family Jewels is Numb I play that song A LOT everyday. actually all of her songs are really awesome all are my favorites!
What I also love about Marina? is her fashion style! I either both love her old style and now. I am just really digging that 50s fashion she's rocking now! Marina and Electra Heart are inspired by icons Madonna, Marilyn Monroe and Marie Antoinette. obvious?! Because of Marina I am now more loving the 50s fashion style and I'd love to do such style soon when I go out? on some special events though, I wonder what the people would think of me? I'm even looking over the internet on some online shops who sells vintage 50s dresses I really want to buy so bad even though I owned some vintage dresses but it seems that they don't have that 50s style. sigh.
Watch some of MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS OFFICIAL VIDEOS:
I'll be forever a Marina's diamond and will be continuing to support her forever because I just love her so much! ♡ ♡ ♡
♡ D O N ' T F O R G E T T O J O I N M Y G I V E A W A Y ♡
So yeah I did not go to school today because I think I'm sick lol just kidding yeah I'm sick. ugh first time absent on 4th year. oh god. I promise not to make lots of absent these coming school days. Sigh. I got bored and So I just take pictures of myself. lol sorry for lots of me in this post. xo.
Hey there~ Pluto! My dog :)
Pierce The Veil - King For A Day Feat. Kellin Quinn
Vic and Kellin's voices ♡ ♡ They're just so perfect! I love PTV and SWS ♡ :3
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